Flambeaux

Ikaw

2004-12-28T14:00:00.000+08:00

IKAW
ay isang pangarap
na kailan man ay di ko maabot
isang bagay
na di ko maaangkin,
isang bakas
ng alaalang lumipas
isang nakaraan
na wala ng babalikan
at isang bukas
na di ko na masisilayan

SALAMAT..
sa nakaraan,
sa mga ala-ala,
sa mga nabuong pangarap,
at sa leksyong natutunan,

PAALAM...
wla na kong babalikan,
di na dapat pagsisihan
ito ay isang pasasalamat
at pag papaalam sa iyo,
bilang isang magandang bahagi ng aking nakaraan

**emem ang drama ko, kaya nabuo ito,,**

Bewitched Heart

2004-11-07T13:47:00.000+08:00

I have been in love for so many times
And my heart breaks all the time
I have an ideal man within my mind
And i always find that kind of man

My ideal man seems not to notice me
And it makes me feel that I don’t exist
Just a smile from him makes my day complete
But it only happens once a week

I always fall in love with someone,
Who happens to love someone else
It breaks my heart and tears me apart
But I cant help it because its what we call love

I always stares at him when his far from me
Coz I can’t look at him when he’s near me
I have no guts to look and talk to him
Coz I’m afraid that I might not hide my feelings for him

Sometimes I think, “am I that ugly?”
That my loved one doesn’t even notice me
I want to cry because it hurts me
But i always think he is not worthy

Why can’t I have someone to love?
Who will love me for what I am
I always have a dull love life
When others enjoy it all the time

I wish someday the right one comes along
But I hope it wont be that long
I hope he would like me as me
And I will like him for what he is

** i found an old poem of mine, way back i can't remember when. baduy hehehe, me pagka stupid and idealistic pa ko nun, hahaha. di ko na din maalala kung bakit ko nagawa to at kung sino ang tarantadong guy na nagbigay sakin ng inspirasyon or heartache rather para maisulat ko ang poem na ito noon **

I thought you are the one

2004-11-06T14:34:00.000+08:00

I thought you are the one?
I thought you’re different from them?
I thought I was right, but I guess I was wrong.
It’s too early for me to assume
That there's a special thing going on
The only good thing that happens to me
Is that I have known the real "you" early on.

**courtesy of my old diary, mga lumang notes ko last feb 23, 2003 and there's still more to come**

Stupid Ghost from the Past

2004-10-22T11:07:00.000+08:00

I thought I’ve already said my piece?
And were both okay with having separate lives
That’s why I am moving on w/ whatever is left w/ my life
But now you’re back
Like a ghost haunting from the past

I thought were both over with our past?
But no!
Your back and wants to relive our scarlet past
Man what do you think of me, Stupid?
You’re telling me that you still love me
And that you can't live with out me

And you anticipate that just because you love me,
We are still what we used to be?
You fool!!
How insensitive of you to think and feel so!

Look for someone else to fool around with.
Because I am not the same naive girl I used to be,
And I have learned my lesson well.
So stop being presumptuous that were still we,
And that machismo style of yours could still win me

Not this time man! Not this time
Please stop messing around w/ my life
Because I might bite your head off,
So Back off and scram!!

Don’t Quit

2004-10-18T16:58:00.000+08:00

by anonymous

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you’re trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit
Rest if you must, but don’t you quit.

Life is queer with its twist and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a fellow turns about
When he might have won had he stuck it out.
Don’t give up though the pace seems slow
You may succeed with another blow.

Often the goal is nearer than
It seems to a faint and faltering man;
Often the struggler has given up
When he might have captured the victor’s cup;
And he learned too late when the night came down,
How close he was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems afar;
So stick to the fight when you’re hardest hit,
It’s when things seem worst that you mustn’t quit.

**thats why I keep on trying, even if its so so so hard. hay thats life!

try ulit

2004-10-18T14:39:00.000+08:00

try try try, and try